Contradicting Me

I may seem independent but I’m hiding the needy and clingy me…

I appear strong so that you will never know how timid I can be…

I always look happy and chirpy, even when the monsters are eating my hearts out…

I explore offbeat places and declare to the world so you will never guess that I’m truly a 路痴…

I fake my confidence coz I’m afraid of losing…

I put up a brave-front so that you can never know how much I’m shaking inside…

I smile when I lose even though I will never admit defeat…

I’m fat, but if you say that, you’re dead, coz I’m ultra vain…

I say look into the mirror coz it never lie, thus I got a slimmer projection mirror instead…

I believe that one should stay true to oneself but I’m the biggest hermit crab myself…

I try to be polite, so you will always be nice to the badass inside…

I keep to my freaking principles even though all I wanted is to belong…

I prefer you to love me more but when you do, I’ll always love you much much more than you can ever love…

I demand so that you will never know I’m contented even if I am…

I say I’ll give up but I’ll always be the last one to move on coz I love you more than words can say…

I say I’m ok, but I’m thinking why the hell you just couldn’t step up…

I’m super friendly but I keep little friends…

I work extremely hard so I can be lazy and coz I’m not that smart…

I’m talkative about anything I remotely know so that I can hide my ignorance on the vast other things that I do not know…

I never regret coz life is too short I’d say, but it’s really just to protect my fragile ego anyway…

That’s me. Contradicting. Not exhaustive.

Love me if you dare…

~PrinceArty, July 2011

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2 thoughts on “Contradicting Me

  1. I just want to let you know that I found your blog entirely by mistake (we’re both obsessed with the same episode of Desperate Housewives and I was looking for the exact quote, haha) but we have a lot in common! Sounds cliche, but i know how you feel in this.

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